Suicide: A permanent solution to a temporary situation. People kill themselves as a way to "cope"with unstable mental states. Suicide is an act out of fear, misery, guilt, grief, confusion and anger. Unstable mental health is the main contributor to self-hate, eating disorders, self-harm, suicide and many other disorders that develop and grow from mental abuse. Most who self-harm, have eating disorders, or self-hate have experienced some form of mental abuse or trauma. For example, constantly being told an individual is worthless, dumb, ugly, fat & that they don’t belong, are examples of what one can say to an individual for an extended amount of time to cause that individual to develop unhealthy defense mechanisms that often start off as temporary ways to cope. However, with extended and continuous abuse, individuals who are already suffering will often times turn to suicide as their final “coping” method. The individual believes that since any of the other “coping” methods didn’t work, then the last but “obvious” choice to end the pain is to kill themselves. Suicide is NEVER the answer. The feelings and situations are all temporary, with many alternatives and options to get out of a harmful situation. There is always another way in, another way around and another way out of these damaging situations. As a survivor of four attempts to end my own life, I have finally accepted that suicide is not the only option to resolve suffering. I learned that I'm not alone and that there IS hope.

Suicide or death?

Suicide through death... no.

"I slit my wrists and paint my nails red

with the blood, because i think it looks pretty."

I miss you.

"I keep a bottle of burbon on my dresser

with a big yellow ribbon around it

because i know it's your favorite!

Well was, your favorite."

I hid them.

"I haven't been able to find

that bottle of pills that you took from me,

the one with the red lid.

it's for the best..."

You hate me.

"I love you

and i hope you can rest easy now.

i'm sorry i wasn't able

to help."

Don't cry...

"I'll see you agin some day,

and i'll beat your ass when i do!

But for now let me stay like this

for just a little bit longer, then I'll go."

...Goodbye

"Since i never got the chance

And i never will, I'll say it now.

I love you and,

Goodbye."

I’ve been looking into Euthanasia, and assisted suicide, recently. It’s illegal in the UK, up to 14 years imprisonment for the helper that is left behind. Where as in the Netherlands, with parents’ permission, people as young as 12 can make that decision. I would have to leave the county I love, the land I grew up in, just to take my own life with no legal repercussion to friends or family. Obviously I would say goodbye.

I think I will pick Canada, I had a lovely ski season there once, it would be nice to see it in the summer time.

Nope, it will have to be Belgium, they are the only country, out of the 5 that allow it, that lists Mental Health as a factor.