It's not a hard landing at all, it's soft.
It's mist and cold air sinking to the bottom of the pit, your welcoming embrace and your condescending laughter.
I never mean to end up here, dependence, familiarity, clinging to blood and scars. I didn't choose you.
But I did.
I saw a brighter future.
I saw it slip between my fingers and found you waiting.
I found you vindicated and sharp-tongued.
I became obedient, submissive, apathetic.
I wore dark lips and layers of concealer, straightened my hair and wrapped myself in fine pearls and
Spoke only pretty words.
I married your nice boy and settled in your small town and allowed them to force me to my knees and
Bow my head.
I let them spit at my heels and returned it with my nose in the air
And every affect of wealth and sophistication
Pinned to my proud chest like a badge.
"They attack me out of ignorance and spite. I'm a victim who can do no wrong. I am better than them."
Your propaganda echoes in my head and I regurgitate it with conviction.
I am everything you wanted me to be.
I am nothing I believe in.
I am satisfied.
The end.