The Darkness has Come
I've got mere hours left of sanity
The Darkness patiently awaits
In the corners, clinging to the shadows
As my protection weakens & deflates
The Darkness curls gnarled fingers in welcome
Soon they'll be a bloody tangle in my hair
Pride in long tresses will be ripped at the roots
Pride falls, but at this point I don't care
This week has brought total devastation
An evil man used the Court to steal my son
And hours from now, I'll say goodbye
To a man who swore he'd never run
Two years since we created this Union
We call it Love, this consuming, volatile thing
We blew up our lives without thinking it thru
With what was intended to be only a fling
But we found a safe place to be together
No furniture, but we were unconcerned
The connection we had was like none before
Bonds deepening while we loved & learned
You promised to be my rock and my strength
You swore I could trust you with my heart
Did you mean it then? Or do you lie again?
Doesn't matter, you're about to depart
There is no hope of stopping this exodus
My "friends" have disappeared this year
I'm clutching a dream to return as a mother
In my dream, you are standing with me here
Why did I let myself believe you?
I should've known you'd want to be free
You needed me, I confused that with love
Soon, the Darkness will come for me
I'm scared, alone in this apartment
With the skeletal remains of our life
My bitter cries echo off shadowy walls
The Darkness wants to make me his wife
And my son, so young but almost grown
Teeters precariously on the edge of adulthood
I pray he remembers how hard I fought back
I fought for him, I did all that I could
On Tuesday, I lost my right to be his mother
On Friday, the man I love leaves
That's when the Darkness will step forward
He will remove dead hands from his sleeves
He will scrape one long, yellow talon
The smooth skin of my thigh will be sliced
I'll see the blade in hand, while on my knees
Sacrifices we offer to the AntiChrist
Twirling with the cold arms of Darkness
We are dancing as lovers, he leads
Immobilized, I am tossed as a rag doll
I watch his dead mouth quiver with need
His laugh echoes down empty hallways
The tormented sound of damned dreams
The sound shakes the walls, batters the brain
I scream and I scream and I scream
Why fight against it, why bother?
There is no one who will notice or care
I'm tired of fighting, I won't fight alone
I'm tired of looking for a family not there
My whole life the Darkness has waited
For him now, I unhinge my mind
I hand it over, my thoughts swallowed whole
I belong to the Darkness now, for all time
Gone. All gone.
Empty sad but true I miss the best part of you.
Never more here to stay not here at all I say
Lost. I'm lost without a compass to guide my way.
No true north. No familiarity through my day,
All because you have gone. Gone away.
You were my North my South,
my East my West, my workday week
and my Sunday rest.
The very best days of my life were wrapped up with you. Now all is lost never to be again.
My lifelong Dreams have come to end.