What Did I Do Wrong?

Why did I lose my Dad?

I am only 8

my tears wet my life

in puddles

I pull covers

over my head

to hide from fear

I put hands over ears

can hear them fight

pretended I was

somewhere else

away from the noise.

Divorce hands

me presents

that I don’t want.

I don’t want

Disneyworld Dad.

I want bedtime stories

playing ball

showing him

my report card.

My innocence lost

never to be found.

Family doesn’t exist

disappeared forever

not there any more.

When I try

to think like a grownup

I know that I will follow

your example

growing up to repeat

                                repeat

                                          repeat

your mistakes

Why did I lose you?

What did I do wrong?