"One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small

And the ones that mother gives you, don't do anything at all"

Yes, my theme song was this

1970's

The pills my mother gave me did nothing

So I went in her draws to find the little pills

Valium for the euphoria, Codeine for pain & more euphoria

The high school years start..more pills, "Black Beauties" for the rush, Cocaine "feel I can do anything" Pot to mellow down..

Yup that was my theme...it's not now but I have to stay "green" and remember because I don't want... "Go ask Donna when she's ten feet tall"...

anymore....

Wish it could be easy

Why is life so messy?

Why is pain a part of us?

There are days I feel like

Nothing ever goes right

Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here

You're real

I know I can trust You

Life is hard, messy, pain is part of everyday life

But 

God is real .

Just like what the chorus said

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

'Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my heart

No matter how hard my life is 

God is always present to comfort me,  heal me and most of all steady my heart. 

Whatever may come my way

I am not going to worry 

He got me inside His hand

Every moment 

Bad and good

whatever gets broken or good everything happens just the way He planned. 

God is real 

I know I can trust Him 

He Steady my Heart

You do remember me, don't you?

I am the kid you never met in High School.

I am that friend you had in Middle School, whose name you can't seem to remember.

I am the greasy spoon waiter you stiffed when you forgot your wallet.

I am the bum that is always begging for bus money, even if he has nowhere else to go.

I am the hero you idolized when you were little, and the one you pretended not to when you got older.

I am the flashing face of every charity you have ever pitied.

I am the figure you were too scared to walk by at night, and the one you avoided in the day.

I am the one you smiled at when we bumped into each other in the grocery store, the one that helped you pick up what you had dropped.

I am the man in the bleachers with a beer-stained jersey, cheering a little too loudly for a team he has never actually met.

I am the kid in the back row who never said a word, the one who kept looking back at the floor every time you noticed him.

I am the hitchhiker you were always told not to pick up, or the one you were always too busy to help.

I am the driver of every passing car.

I am a blurred image in an endless crowd.

I am every face you have forgotten.

I am every presence you never noticed.

I am every story you have never heard.

So

You do remember me now,

Don't you?

Eh is the color of Zoe's hair,

Eh is her opinion when we ask if she'll care,

Eh is what she think broccoli tastes like,

Eh is her opinion on Season 1 on "Psych",

Everything is Eh when it comes to her,

Eh can even be a cat that starts to pur,

You think that's it's great but she just says it's eh,

Not super duper, cool, or even boring meh,

Eh, eh, eh, eh,eh,

Screw this poem, it's eh.

Nev shown a real smile in my life

Never been happy to be precise 

Don't even get why I have this life

But lived till now so I'll still survive 

The song that is the theme of my life right now would probably be Rock Bottom by Eminem. I may not be going through everything that he mentions in the song, but I feel like I've reach Rock Bottom in my life right now. I have no motivation, no job, and no partner to share my love and happiness with.

The lyrics speak for themselves....

Another year has passed me by

Still I look at myself and cry

What kind of man have I become?

All of the years I've spent in search of myself

And I'm still in the dark

'Cause I can't seem to find the light alone

Ten thousand people look my way

But they can't see the way that I feel

Nobody even cares to try

I spend my life and sell my soul on the road

And I'm still in the dark

'Cause I can't seem to find the light alone

Sometimes I feel like a man in the wilderness

I'm a lonely sailor lost at sea

Drifting with the tide

Never quite knowing why

Sometimes it makes no sense at all

(I'm alive)

Looking for love I'm a man with emotion

(Heart's on fire)

I'm dying of thirst in the middle of the ocean

I'm alive!

My life is a song with a theme of joyful hope woven through every single moment. Joyful because of knowing who I am and that I am loved even in my worst state. And that same love lifts me higher and speaks hope in my ear, building a capacity in my heart to trust and go forward in victory.

I am blessed also because that love is strong for me when I am weak and carries me when I can not stand. "I am my Beloved's and He is mine". His love is unconditional.  The theme of His grace is singing in the depths of my heart and soul. I am overcome by this love that has so completely governed my life that anyone who knows me knows the theme of my life.