There is a cricket in the tall grass
at my elbow, chirping irregularly
in the warm evening
as the sky purples into night.
We are side by side in the field
behind my house, near the pond
where we spent the afternoon
skinny-dipping. Under my head
is a Spider-Man comic book,
under yours your t-shirt.
A breeze runs up my shins,
my inner thighs, over my stomach,
across my chest, up my neck
and into my hair and away,
and I feel - though I don't know -
that I've been kissed from my toes
to my crown by gentle, delicate lips
not unlike yours. I think you are asleep;
I can hear, beneath the rustling grass,
the deep rhythmic cycle of your breath.
I close my eyes and remember your
body slipping through the water
like a snake, and I remember how we met:
I was walking the river path and I saw you
bent like a reed over the bank, hanging from
a curving willow branch, dipping your long
fingers into the slow-moving stream. I stopped
in my tracks, I surely did, and looked at you,
slim and golden and fearless. Someday,
I told myself, I will kiss you.
It feels very much like someday now,
in the tall grass, your thin chest rising
and falling beside me, the smell of
sunshine on your skin, your freckled shoulder
warm next to mine.
Somedays, though, pile up, accumulate;
like counting the seconds between a
lightning strike and a thunderclap -
anticipation, fear, and then
the storm has moved on far away,
into someone else's sky.
Perhaps I will never kiss you;
or I will do it now, or now, or now.
Or turn my heartbeat into a
cricket's chirping, a nocturne
for your dreaming mind, your
unmoored body, to sail you closer
to the shore of my own sea.