Left With Nothing
One day you’re here
The next you’re gone
The unexpectedness
Is what hurts the most
I thought I would
Hold on to you
For a long time
It wasn’t meant to be
You were meant to be free
You belong to the world now
Your soul is free
There are no longer
Any restraints
Holding you back
I know it’s for the best
I know it was getting hard for you
But it’s hard to know
I will no longer have your guidance
Now I’ll just ask myself
Would you be proud?
I’ll never know for sure
I’ll never know if I’m living my life
The way you would want me to
I’m left to live up
To the impossible legacy you left
You helped people you barely knew
You put yourself in danger
To save others
I don’t know if I could ever do that
But I can write for you
I can see myself
In the words
You published
I want to live a life like yours
But I’m not sure I can
I want to be who you always saw in me
But I’m not sure I can
I miss you more than you could ever know
I’ve never seen your grave
I know you’re gone
But I’m not sure I could bare
To see your name
Carved permanently
Into the stone
The pain has eased
Since the beginning
But I don’t think it will ever
Go away entirely
I’ve found
Missing you
Is worse than anything else
Because there is no way
I could ever get you back