Swallowed Up
I fade into background,
little drops of molten ash,
timid roots tunneling
in tangled webs
trapping my feet.
I feel red ants
crawling in my lungs.
Flawed words tumble
into my belly,
struggling
to let my panic
escape,
wrapped in feelings
of being born
upside down.
Hidden between walls
I shrink
into black ocean
of shyness.
Shy
There is a universe in my mind
No one else knows about.
It's my home
And the only place I feel welcome.
I prefer to keep to myself.
I feel like I’m the only one
Who will ever understand me.
My mind convinces me
No one cares what I think.
I convince myself
The world is better off
Without me making myself heard.
So I just stay in my head.
I listen to and watch
The world around me.
I pay attention
More than people know.
I may seem disinterested.
I just don’t know how to be social
Or interact with others.
I’m just shy.
I’m just me.
Maybe someday
People will accept that.
shyness ’s strategy
Scared of being who I am
Scared of who I am not
Scared of missing what I aim
I'd rather be shy then make a fault
I'd rather let silence take the blame
I'll be the one who didn't fail
I'll be the one who didnt'try
I won't sink because I didn't sail
I'll fall from low and not from high
I won't laugh I won't cry
I'll leave my love for you for I
Naturalistic.
She takes a deep breath...
He moves with stealth..
Her date leans in for a kiss
She turns her head rapidly
He steps back~
blinks for a moment-
And she blushes.
He nods his head~
She is not going to make this easy,
They´ll have to move steady.
He leads her to a table...
once she is seated she pulls out a book,
from her handbag,
He pulls out one too, from his briefcase..
They soon have their dinner
He takes her back home at the end
She gives him a kiss on the cheek
He smiles and waves goodbye
Then he sighs, now he feels nervous...
Would she say yes to another date?
#Naturalistic.
