I've lived a lot of life in a short time--I've crammed it betwen the homeless nights, dead end jobs, lost dreams and hard work that never really paid out and I've had a lot of fears for sure but most of them have come true; my biggest fear? Sure that happened about 13 years ago. Can you really list a fear as your biggest fear if it's already happened or if it's already come true? My biggest fear is that my biggest fears will be repeated or come true again.

I have decided to deny all inhibitions

restarting and rethinking

I'm avoiding overthinking

undermining my tendency to implode

I am determined to send my sorrow into the sky

a display of pure emotion

freedom is forbidden so we might as well fake it

what am I afraid of?

nothing but myself

I fear that I will just be in people's way, nothing but a burden to carry. I fear that I'll be an annoying person, always clinging on too heavily.

I fear that I won't be what others wanted, being what others haven't wanted.

I fear that I will be a disappointment, making others not believe in me.

The monster under my bed

Looks a lot like

Sleep Paralysis

I have lived coping

And not knowing

Every time

A new fear ignites inside me...

There

I see a parade running by me

A man standing over me

Point teeth of a tiger

Howling angry dogs

I feel numb like I'm drowning

Then my sheets are rolling waves

Hands grab my arms

While elephants dance upon my chest

Them I am swallowed up inside myself

Helpless

Helpless

HELPLESS!!!

I manage to wake

But always afraid

I may still be dreaming

She cries her self asleep each night, not out loud, but silently.... Not on the outside on the inside. She does not want to show weakness, but it claws inside her... Me afraid to Step up to my family for who I want to be... what life i want to chose the path in my road I want to take. What beliefs I want to believe. I fear to disappoint them.... My flaw I put others more then myself..... For now one of My fear is to be myself—Terra

Staring at the starting line,

halfway up the mountain,

before the final curve,

And forgetting why I'm there.

You waiting behind a hill,

letting sun blind me,

walking past you,

wondering at the scent of lavender

which reminds me of beaches and Spain.

Perpetual amnesia

a gentle good night,

unending grey

never flashing lightning.

Flat lines stretching on into infiniti,

Danish landscapes for miles.

I had to think long and hard about what is my biggest fear. I'm a navy veteran who has been nearly ripped apart, crushed, burned alive, or impaled by my machinery I worked on, so dying is out. I trained long and hard to be a firefighter in the navy as well, so facing death is out. It took looking into the eyes of those I loved the most for me to realize what my biggest fear was and will always be, failing those I love. Not showing them I care every second I am with them, spoiling them so that they are happy and never feel the cold tinge of need or want. I'll sacrifice everything that I am to make sure they know exactly what they mean to me. I love them with every atom of my being.

It's as simple as that.