The saddest day was when I lost my best friend. The previous night I didnt sleep so that I could spend time with her. Then the time came for us to go. I packed her up already teary eyed and we got in the truck. My dad kept trying to say it would put her out of her pain since she couldnt even hop. We went inside and we got checked in and than I sat there petting her through cage, wishing I had been home more often. They called us back and the vet said that there was nothing else he could do and that it was time to say my goodbye as he went to get the nurse and the supplies. Tears were running down my face and I'm sure my sobs could be heard a mile a way. It was 5 minutes and I still wasnt ready to say goodbye. A box of tissues was almost gone. How did they expect me to say goodbye to someone who had changed my life. They said I could be with her till she closed her eyes, but I hurt so much my dad told me to just go to the truck. I left her there for her final moments with complete strangers. I cried the rest of the day and into the night. No matter what the saddness consumed me. My mother tried to help but nothing would work. I was broken inside.

After years of love and immense happiness that I found from him he fell silent one day and began to despise me for a reason I still don't know, he left without even telling me why. When he finally left me alone with our child I didn't know how to feel, I went through the house blinded by my own tears only when I needed to, I was trapped in my bed for days paralyzed with depression for the rest of the day. My only sources of happiness were my internet friends that loved me no matter what. It hurt so much that I wanted to stop existing all together, when we had to decide custody I was close to just giving up custody and killing myself afterwards, but in the last few moments I pulled myself back together and gave myself strength from hope that I could find someone better and find something else that would give me happiness. I started writing and creating all these different characters and scenarios as ways to espress my emotions in mixed ways. I put shards of myself in each and everyone of the characters and used pieces of my own life to make their stories, I took different possibilities I could've gone through and made more characters and more stories until I finally found love in the characters and stories I built. A character I once made that was a literal reflection of who I was with my entire story learned right alongside me, had the same dreams as me and she accomplished them through love and patience and she succeedded just as I did shortly after, she won with her brand new friends and she showed her kindness to the world and promised to help anyone like her. Because nobody deserves to feel worthless.