I wish I could love this song. Unfortunately, almost every person in my family that has died has done so from cancer. My sister is the biggest My Chemical Romance fan I knew, and growing up we shared a room. Naturally, I hated their music just because she loved them. I would listen to The Black Parade over and over for years never taking it in. Just after my uncle died, my sister got the words “Bury me in all my favorite colors” tattooed on her arm. She told my parents it was from the My Chemical Romance song, “Cancer” and it was for our Uncle Kevin. He died from cancer. And years before he had took my sister to her first MCR concert and said that he liked this song the best. Again, this did not mean much to me. I never bothered listening to the song.

A few years later, Kevin’s mother--my grandmother--was dying of cancer. In a twist of fate, Cancer by MCR came on my playlist. The piano chords struck me immeidately and I was stunned into listening. I heard “bury me in all my favorite colors” and cried in the middle of the library. I texted my sister about this moment, and I can now listen to the song but only with overwhelming thoughts of family, those here and those not.

Although a lot of this is my sister’s story, I believe it was important to share, because it affects me too, and it is just another invisible thread that keeps us together.

Most of the times, I keep to myself.

You see.. That resulted in me being an island.. I find solace in ink and paper, in words and rhythms.

I fell in love with a song and then with the band. The song is 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams' and the band is.. Green Day.

Everytime I listen to the song, I get lost in it, in the tune..

Everytime I let the lyrics wash over me, I get crazy and soothed at the same time.

It is not just a song, it is an anthem.. To me.

You might have guessed it: it’s by BTS. It connects with me personally because in the chorus, it says take my hands now, you are the cause of my euphoria and I feel like that’s what BTS feels to me. Personally, this song doesn’t just describe me joining ARMY, but other fandoms as well. Some people say that joining/being part of a fandom is like falling into a hole; but for me, joining fandoms is (sometimes) voluntary and it was like (cringey but here we go) I was in utopia laughing at the various references and memes made by my fellow ARMY.

Euphoria also resonates with ARMY and BTS a lot since the main message BTS is trying to tell people is to love yourself because if you can’t love yourself, you can’t truly love anyone. It’s also like their reaching out to us ARMYs, telling us not to be afraid to face yourself and love yourself.

PS. Please give it a listen if you haven’t already, but if you don’t like Kpop then I will respect your decision.

(If you’re ARMY and don’t know the theories behind euphoria, serendipity, epiphany and singularity, I suggest you to look them up)

Internet personas by Atlas is about exactly what you think it is about. If there is any verse i relate too its the second verse and im sure most people on this site can relate as well. The lines that hit me the hardest are when he says "The little quirks in all their writing became terse and uninviting and injesting any lettering they surgeoned into life instead of being entertainment, was inert and just absurd and all the work was F***ing tiring, and suddleny they were writing less and less," and "Theres only so much F***ing art work you can make till you forget the way to start." Things like this hurt to relate to, but it makes me feel comfortable knowing that even great writers get heavy writers block and deal with mental illnesses themselves. I highly recommened giving this song a listen sometime, i can't promise you'll enjoy it but hopefully you can relate and appreciate it.