i know its wrong

everytime i hear this song

it makes me cry

i will not lie.

it makes me think of you

and how i fell

i thought the words were ture

but now i want to yell

because i still care

about you

and i thought

you felt that way to

and i wish i didn't get caught

up with the way i feel

because it would never be real.

I’m a major crybaby, but oddly enough, it’s hard for music with lyrics to evoke my tears.

However, if you tie a beutiful piece of music with beutiful images, I’ll be bawling in seconds, which is why I’ve compiled a list of OSTs (and 2 lyrical songs) that have at some point or another, made me cry. And I’ve kindly assigned a scale of heartache to each piece, so you know what you’re getting into if you choose to google it.

“As Long as he’s Safe” by John Powell - The compilation of years of beautiful story coming together into one massive montage of stress, love, and pain, and then having the sudden realization that all great things have to come to an end.

Scale of destruction: The kind of pain a child experiences while having their favourite blanky torn from their grasp.

Also, it was written by a composer who knows how to wrack up those critical hit points. Meanwhile, a sadistic movie-making crew decided to play the song right after (and/or while) you suffer from a heart attack.

Naruto Storm 4 End Credits by Chikayo Fukuda - Again, it’s the beautiful montage of years of story being shoved down the throat of a dedicated fan. Except, it’s more unexpected this time.

Scale of destruction: Picture a Mortal Kombat victim whose narrator said “FATALITY” eons ago, but the beater-upper didn’t get the memo and had been spamming their ultimate move since... eons ago.

“Musique Pour la Tristesse de Xion” by Yoko Shimomura

Scale of destruction: The kind of pain of enduring 30+ hours of cruel gameplay and losing your save file. (This didn’t actually happen to me for this specific game, but its an accurate representation of what my heart went through)

“Sadness and Sorrow” by Toshio Masuda

Scale of destruction: Death.

“Disciple of Shoyo” by ???

Scale of destruction: Like learning your entire life was a lie.

“Rainy Tone” (piano vers) by (K)NoW_NAME

Scale of destruction: Like watching someone shatter; someone you didn’t think could ever be sad.

“Little Soldier Boy (Leaves from the Vine)” by Jeremy Zuckerman - I couldn’t even listen to this one while searching for it. Three minutes of music and eight lines of lyrics that cast a sadness beyond tears.

Scale of destruction: Like reading a book from the perspective of a cemetary.

“Wind” by Akeboshi - the only song I know of that’s in 5/4 time

Scale of destruction: Like watching a little boy wander from place to place with no friends or family and you’re unable to hug this child or reassure him that things’ll be okay.

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That’s all I can take, but instead of leaving you all depressed, here’s a little song from me to you, to flip that frown upside down:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36EWzlpD8J4&list=PLEs5dpDVDP5bl3R9cBAaBEYyFaOnpXk8u&index=55

Hope you like rock^

The song "Somewhere only we know" by Keane is one of my favorites. In the song, he says, "I'm getting old, and I need something to rely on. So tell me when you're gonna let me in. I'm getting tired, and I need somewhere to begin." This has always spoken to me and how whenever I feel stuck I always change something. When it gets hard and I cant just easily change the color of my hair or my clothing choice I always go back to this song and cry. I'm getting old, and I need something to rely on. I need someone to rely on. I'm getting tired, I need something to change.

"And if you have a minute, why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?"

Why do things have to be complicated? Cant we just go back and realize who we are, can't we just talk about it?

I struggle with self harm. Linkin Park's musical masterpiece includes lines that hit way too deep.

"I bleed it out, digging deeper just to throw it away" refers to the way I toss out the trust of my friends and family all for a useless sliver of fake release.

"String me up from a trapeze roost / tie it tight so I won't get lose."

Every time I've though about killing myself, I always wonder if my body (or my life) will find a way to struggle out and keep me going, even when I don't want to.

RIP Chester Bennington

They only care once you're dead.