Wanna Hear A Story?
In the beginning, there was a young girl, brought into a great big world.
Throughout the girl’s life, she tended to distance herself from others.
She did not know how to approach people, and not feel as if she was being strangled to stop the words from leaving.
The very few words she spoke were hushed and full of stutters and uncertainty.
The girl didn’t mind the solitude but it got lonely.
As the loneliness grew and grew the more she sank inside her head.
The girl began to wonder when had she ever had a smile on her face.
She wondered about the times she wasn’t always caught up in the small things.
She wondered about a time she wasn’t always overthinking her life.
She wondered if she was a likable person or somebody that nobody likes.
She wondered when did she start to question her worth.
She wondered when the last time she was happy and she wasn’t acting.
She wondered why, when she felt emotions she always masked them.
She wondered what happened to her.
All these thoughts overwhelmed her,
and slowly ever so slowly they took over.
Making a monster inside of her head.
But nobody knew because she was such a good actor.
The mask she always wore hid the monster deep within.
And I’ve tried to take it off but it’s glued to my skin.
forgotten clusters of us
and as we laid in the green grass
I whispered into your ear, stroking your arm gently
[ always remember... please
I have no doubts about what we have
my struggles come only from s h a t t e r e d veins ]
( tired and damaged over the years )
you jerked at those words, almost swimming in electricity , body lifting abruptly
as if the whole world
was tumbling down your shoulders
arms tightly wrapped around your knees
time froze, there was nothing
just heavy notions that spoke from your soul to my open core
and then you looked at me , dark eyes mixing with the bright stars above your head
your expression sad but eyes blazing , consuming my insides as you spoke
[ I’m build the same way as you... can’t you see ? ]
something shifted into place, something exhaled slowly
and I heard us then... our tones whispering shyly of magnificence
stealing the breath in my lungs
that already belonged to you
for centuries I moved within your sphere
and that night, gazing at the calm raging fires centered in your being
knowing I would not sleep
knowing I would never sleep again
I moved up slowly by your side, leaning in
lips pressing against the exposed skin of your back , arms surrounding you with care
blending into something
that I could not touch with my mind
[ we share our fears, hopes and lost breaths
our hearts beating with the same
f r a c t u r e d drums ]
your face turned to me at that moment
voice just a fragile hush between moonless nights
that you had to go through alone . finally feeling the glow under your skin
colliding stars that spoke of us
[ so different, and yet so alike ]
the tenderness that filled me then . never stopped humming in my blood
months passed, years, endless lifetimes
and I was still with you at this moment , in that sweet surrender
that barely defined bliss
when you hold my soul in your hands
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