I am broken that you are ok without me

I always wanted to be the person you go to when you’re gloomy

so that I could make you happy

but suddenly you have given someone else your time,

you have given someone else the ability to provide you your happiness

but once they mess up,

and they will,

do not think about coming back to me

because there will be a time where you miss me,

and there will be nothing there anymore,

not for you, ever

because you decided to wait too long

you have nothing left of me

just the memory of me

If I had to use a word to describe how you made me feel

Vulnerability would be my top choice

You made me feel like a Sunflower in a field of Lilacs

You shut me out, now you’re gone

I felt lonely in the days I was surround by the ones who loved me most

and felt loved in the days where there was no one but myself and my thoughts

where there was nothing left to do but let them take over me until i realized the monster you have made

I have your name memorized, as if your name was the answer to every question on a test

I hear your name and i immediately turn around to see if it’s you being called

You have managed to get yourself trapped inside my thoughts, even if it’s been months since you’ve gone

Everything I hate, has turned into you, so i’m forced to love it

I no longer think about the things i used too

Now i’m stuck on one thing and it’s all about you

#you #youwereoncemyeverything