Taking one step of new beginning.

Life teach us to never took things for granted.

i did in the past.

i thought that everything will always be okay.

I thought that tomorrow will always be mine.

Who would have thought that this past weeks,

there is someone who will never got their chance to see their tomorrow.

so here i am,

taking the first step for my tomorrow.

For those who will never got the chance,

i will do it for them.

Ending of this pain, is a new begining for me.

Finding love isn't easy,

But one thing for sure,

It last forever...

18/5/2017     

Julie Anne

Life isn't just about how you act,

What you do,

Or who you befriend with,

It's about everything.

One mistake can't break you,

infact it shouldn't shake your ground,

because it makes who you are now,

whether you want to learn from it or repeat it,

Held your chin up and smile.

Pain of being cheated,

Pain of being left alone.

Love sometimes is unfair,

and sometimes we mistakenly thought it was love.

you left me when i need you the most,

without a notice or memos,

i caught you with someone who i hate the most.

well it's all in the past now,

Karma sometimes hit harder,

you got what you deserve,

with a smile, i decided, i could laugh it all away

you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

darkness and silence..

Makes everything more sensitive as you can even hear your heart beat. If you even move an inch, the intruder will definitely heard.

I knew something was wrong when doorbell rang on 3 in the morning. I should'vent follow heath to his family house. Now i dont know what happen to the rest of them as im too scared to even breathe.

"jenny, psstt jenny" someone call me from the hallway. It's heath, i know it's him.

"come out. He's gone, i've search the whole house" heath console me and now i know that it's safe.

Last i saw him, when he was kneeling beside his dead sister and after that i ran without looking back. i dont even saw the intruder face as i woke up with by the sound of doorbell and heath wasnt beside me. He told me there's someone else in the house and ask me to hide.

"are you sure? where are you heath" i ask shakingly and grip on my left hand hard.

"just come out please" his voice sound a bit hesitate and unsure.

when i step out from the laundry room, i saw heath crouching down with his hands on his face. "are you okey heath? where's hellen and brad?"

"mom and dad gone jen! they're dead" he cried but still didn't face me.

"what about the intruder? you find him?"

"no, i was hiding after i saw hayley dead and when i come out that guy is gone" heath assuring himself.

"are you sure"

"yes, wh- jen? why there's blood on your cloth?"

"i couldn't find you earlier heath. i know you good at hide and seek, that's why i wait till you come out"

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Dear Self,

Be aware of your actions,

Because actions make future,

Its up to us to make it beautiful or disaster.

Don't stop for anything,

Don't wait for even a seconds,

Because what's await might be the light or darkness.

Be righteous towards people,

No matter age, colours or race,

Because in the end,

we all are same.

Same end,

Same fate,

But different path.

Dear self,

Be good and choose wisely,

Because when it's too late, its late,

There's no second chances,

Because it's already the end. 

Julie Anne

12/5/17

Pain of losing,

Pain of being alone,

Pain of being without you.

Those summers where i share laughter's with you,

Now is just a fading memories.

Those day when i wake up in your arms,

Now is just a cold empty sheets.

Those days when i wish that we will belong forever,

Now im alone.

No matter how hard i cry everyday and plead for you to come back,

all i get is a sorrowful wind that send shivers to my bones.

When you gone,

i lost everything,

it's like nothing is matters to me anymore.

i was nothing before i meet you,

im alone and lonely,

you give me light and warmth,

but now its all taken back away from me.

The source of the lights in my life is gone,

you're gone.

Whenever i try to be with you,

in a verge of ending it all.

i remember when you hug me in the bathroom,

soothing me when im crying,

when im angry.

Your words are still fresh in my minds.

It's like you were there,

like you never left.

But when i wake up,

its still white and empty.

You said to me that you'll come back every time that you gone,

but the last words you said to me that day is,

"Don't wait for me, i love you"

But my dear, i will always wait for you.

No matter how long you're gone,

no matter how long i'll live,

in the end we will be together again.

-Grief 8/5/2017 5.17PM