She Says
Word of war ning. She has an idea. She insists that I listen. She can get money. And well quick she reckons. You see the girl there. She thinks she's someone. She's easy to take off. She's standing alone. That chain round her throat. Just look how it glistens. A knife to her neck. She has it in seconds. She's happy she's got it. Come on now she says. She's punching the air. No cares that she bled. I'm full of remorse. Why did I stand there. Why didn't I run. Why doesn't she care. A. Good word of warning. Pick your friends well. Cause if you're not careful. Then you'll go to hell
Take your worste nightmare. Take your worste nightmare and times it by ten. That's me in that court there. Getting the blame. Yes I've done bad things. But I've paid my dues. So this time you're kidding me. What did I do ? I thought God would save me. He'd see how I pray. But he wasn't watching. Not this darned day. So take your worste nightmare. Then times it by ten. Cause I'm on the bus. Back to hell once again. I know the procedure. All human rights gone. God knows for how long. Please take your worste nightmare. And times it by ten. Cause fate has no preference. Of choice in its men. And so starts the life. Of take what you can. Cause show any weakness. You're floored once again. A life with camelions. Who show true or not. And waiting to see. Who's after you're lot. So this is my nightmare. In fighting off ten. And sleeping with strangers. AND SO WE BEGIN.........
Tonight...
That night I was thinking about all I did wrong,
People I've hurt, I didn't belong
Tonight I feel better,
Stronger inside
No more lights off
I don't have to hide.
I can't wait to taste you,
To rub on your skin
To give pleasure back and
Again we begin.
To feel you inside me
Both bodies alive
Feel your breath in my ear
This I can't hide.
Tonight I shall love you
Because I love me.
Can't think of anyone better
To be. X
Well I never
Two days ago,walked my new friend and the snow fell down. Just for once, I stopped, I looked around. Cold, soft was nice. Never knew I liked ice. One day ago me and Boss strolled. It was raining. Soft but in my face cold. Was nice, refreshing. I liked it I'm guessing. Today.. me and Boss ran out of the house. The sun was out, so were my neighbours,. Loads about,. Been this spot over 20 years. Never once said hello. But now, NOW I know. I LOVE THE SUN xxxxxx. It's good fun. And. I love people. Well I never.......
Regrets.
Only days ago and for so many nights
keys in the locks and the having to fight.
A toilet you WILL share, blue mattress cold
and hard.
That new girl stare as they are marking your
card.
That longing for familiar, please ears my families
voice
instead il hear the stranger and their whimpers of
no choice.
Wanting to trust, but knowing youre prey,
dreaming of past, if only.. that day....
if only ..............
Today i can hear you my darling.
Today i have been saved.
How much do i love you
"Mum, it feels like you dont love us anymore"
"Course i do honey" as i drive off and score.
"Mum can we go pictures and watch a movie"
"Tomorrow babe yeah"as i attach the foil loosely'.
"Mum please eat, youre so skinny its a joke.
"Heres dinner babe" I tip it away, I breathe in the smoke.
I cry, I cry, I cry.
"Mum i had to fight cause they say youre a druggy"
"God babe, I do love you" . One left still thats lucky.
The lies, the deceit. I know your not thick
The time is now, No life was shit, il get a grip.
Girl i love you and your brother more than life
From now on days will be nice, From now on dark is light.
Ive been a slave to my greed, blind to the pain.
I know you all cant take it again.
From the bottom of my heart....PLEASE FORGIVE ME......
Like my soldier and princess you loved through the lot.
I took for granted the love that i got.Make NO mistakes...ITS OVER......