As I sit here a slave to the grind tonight

I can't help but wonder what our love holds in time

I look back at our history and desperately seek

A way to end your misery

All the tears that have been shed

The pieces of a shattered and broken soul

Are the images I have dancing around in my head

Much like the savior of a man

Our love will rise again

No one being nor any amount of adversity

Will keep us away

I need for you to realize

That I am here to stay

I had to have you the moment I saw you

standing in the hallway looking like trouble

without a care in the world

You didn't notice me, but I didn't care

watching you from a distance was enough for me

Despite what everyone at school thought

I knew something they all didn't

I was gonna talk to you and you were gonna listen

Anything else would have been just cruel and unfair

So I did and you did and from that day on

there was something going on

No one else knew

but just us two

I couldn't care because you may not have seen me daily

But when you did

I was the lucky one

That was almost a lifetime ago

as i look back

I don't care what all the others saw

What did it mean to me?

That's easy....

On those nights that you noticed me

I had you and you had me

for no one but us to see

exactly as it should be

Where do I go from here?

Who can pull me from the darkness?

And if they help, what then? Would they grow to fear

Fear of the light, the dark, or all that is supposed to make us human?

And if they finally understood, then they would know

Not everyone here wants to protect them.

Then what? They live free of all the pain and torment

Of knowing their soul will never turn black?

And suppose all of this is true, does it include the ones like me and you?

The souls that were blackened because our innocence was taken and free will was lost?

Before I met you

My life was like a speeding train

I was running off the tracks

You showed me love

A love that helped me

You set me straight

Like a razor blade

We had our ups and downs

But you always remained by my side

No matter how difficult I was to be around

Because of you I got to feel again

I didn't love you like I should have

But you knew I couldn't

And you were ok with that

I cared for you deeply

Like an addict I was hooked

Ruined and broken only for you

Your beautiful chaos

Through and through

Now you're gone

We're separated by death

I am veering off course again

Grasping at straws

Trying to fill the void

That sucks away

Everything good in me

Separated by death

Gone but not forgotten

Always in my mind

Forever in my heart

James Mackensie "Spud" Saylor

You were truly one of a kind

You made me feel young again

And I couldn't have asked for a better friend

Please peek in on the girls from time to time

Fly High Mackensie and please know I am just fine.