It has been awhile since I wrote again.

My feelings for you drives me crazy even more.

I realised, my head keeps thinking of you.

I realised, my thought keeps drifting to you.

I realised, my heart keeps wanting you.

What's happening?

You are like a new drug that I can't leave without.

You are like a new addiction that I am super obsessed with.

Help me though.

My feelings are all messed up,

just like how you had messed with my feelings.

I don't know if I am in love with you,

or that, this is how I should be feeling for a really good and close friend.

All I know that

I miss you even more each day.

My day isn't complete when I don't talk to you before I sleep.

Seeing you everyday is a must, if not I'll miss you even harder.

Help!

I'm lost in my world of thoughts.

Sometimes though,

they can be super dark,

like how you don't care for me as much as I do you.

Help!

Save me from my thoughts.

Help me see the reality.

Spell it out to my face.

I need the truth.

Is what i'm feeling right?

Do I have a loose screw somewhere?

If not,

tell me that everything is okay.

#imissyou #romance #mixedfeelings #lost

I swear to the dust in my room,

to the silence of the room,

that I have to stop denying,

the fact that I have a crush on you.

I decided to stop lying to myself, as I listen to sad and depressing songs about love.

I thought,

I only like you as a friend.

But I guess not.

I care for you,

not in a platonic way.

I care for you,

in a way beyond platonic.

I can’t describe,

how I am feeling.

I’m still speechless as to why I will have a crush on you.

Trust me, I am still wondering the different reasons why,

what is it that makes you so attractive,

what is it that makes you so adoring.

I can list a few right now,

but

you are a beautiful creature which I can only admire from afar.

Game over, when I get too close.

I guess,

for now,

I just,

have to,

crush

from afar.

#200719

#romance

is it bad that i want your attention?

is it bad that i get jealous when you spend time with others?

is it bad that i want you all to myself?

i’m sorry i’m such a desperate human.

with so much emotions for you

so much obsession with you.

i think of you everyday

i think of you from head to toe

i think of what you might be thinking

i think of what you might be doing

But with so much thoughts,

I still can’t stop my feelings for running so deep.

love me more, will you?

love me more, would you?

love me more, forever?

I’m sorry for feeling this way.

blame it on how addicting you are.

I’m helpless without you.

#love #addiction #desperate #ineedmore #feelings #emotions #you

I miss you

our story was left there hanging.

you didn't finsh it as you walked away from me.

we create all the fun and happy times,

write all the sad and misarable times,

draw all the cuddles and romantic times,

colour all the crazy times,

but it just stopped there the day you went away.

I miss you to the moon and back.

I miss you as deep as the ocean.

I miss you as far high up where the stars live.

That's how much i miss you,

but do you miss me too?

It's cliche to say I miss you, but i did.

truly, deeply, madly,

i'll say for a million times,

I miss you.

But that's not all.

I miss it when you nag at me.

I miss it when you scream my name.

I miss it when you make me jealous.

I miss it when you dream of us.

I miss it when you kiss my tears away.

I miss it when you celebrated my birthdays.

I miss it when you wear my clothes.

I miss it when you shower me.

I miss it when you say my name.

I can say it a billionth times,

but i miss hearing you say I love you.

There's more that I miss about you,

but no matter how sweet my words are,

how impressive of the words I use,

how crazy I'm so obsessed with you,

Do you miss me too?

I know for a fact that I do.

even for a fact that you don't

truly, madly, deeply,

I miss you, too

#imissyou

what's admirable is how there's summer, autumn, spring and winter.

what's arresting is how there's the sun and the moon which brights our night.

what's alluring is how the air smells of earth after every pouring rain.

what's adoring is how nature relies on one another to live.

what's amazing is how earth continues to move even when we don't feel it.

what's astonishing is how colourful and dull the world can be.

But that's nature in its naked and glorious self.

I say beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.

i see the naked world, destroyed, but still magically naturally beautiful.