You hurt MY feelings...

but when I say you caused me pain,

somehow it's my fault.

Somehow, you can so easily treat me badly and hurt my feelings

but as soon as I defend myself

I'm the problem.

Somehow, I start all the problems and the fights!

Somehow I always have to be right and know it all.

So my answer... I will retreat

I won't come around

I won't say my opinions or feelings

I won't make an effort anymore.

Hurt masks itself in many ways

there could be tears,

there could be yelling,

there could be discussions,

or I could just walk away.

I've done all of those things

and yet no matter what I do, it is never the right thing.

So much hurt, that I mask with an icy glare or a blank stare.

It's not worth my effort anymore.

It's not worth my time.

It's not worth the worry and hurt anymore.

You don't worry about me.

Afterall, I'm not your daughter.

I just married your son.

My life is not what it appears

It's drastically misleading

The choices that I’ve made here

Are lacking and deceiving

Family & friends that I held dear

Somehow have lost their meaning

Left by myself, to my own tears

With the consequences reeling

Remedies are so unclear

& my sanity is yielding

I want only to disappear

& stop this pain I'm feeling

Be the decision maker and ruler of your own future. Do not allow others; no matter how near and dear to disrespect you, make you feel guilty, or manipulate you into changing what you have determined will make you happy, for their own selfish reasons. Throw away the excuses. Demand peace and harmony in your home, heart and life. Then you will no longer be a prisoner and things will be a whole lot easier once the dust settles.