Irrelevant

With every pill, I'm more aware

I'm living lies, but I don't care

It could be worse & this I know

Another sign that I should go

My broken mind can't see the truth

Twenty-six years of wasted youth

I've curled my days in fetal fears

And drowned my nights in guilty tears

While those die starving in the streets

I'm playing dead beneath my sheets

I've tried my hand at slicing veins

It just reminds me of their pain

A single bullet to my skull

Their death is real, while mine is null

My voices chant, they want me dead

Consumes the world inside my head

Reality feels so unreal

Desperate to numb the ache I feel

I know that others have it worse

I'm plagued with such a minor curse

That rots my memory & hope

That makes me doubt my will to cope

The world revolves around us all

But my sickness makes them small

I'm the one I can't forgive

Too scared to die, ashamed to live