Numb

I had this problem

where I felt everything

when I was supposed to feel nothing

and where I felt nothing

when I was supposed to feel something

when the sun comes out, I'm a happy, affable and tolerant person

but when the sun goes down, so do I

irked by everything, crying at the littlest things

or staring at a blank wall for hours on end

3-4 hours is all I'm getting nowadays

when people ask me why I stayed up so late?

I tell them I was watching a movie or a tv show, lying

it's easier than telling them I spent the whole night crying