Infatuation

Under your spell,

I dug a hole of my infatuation,

And into it I fell.

I once thought it a figment of my imagination,

But my mind is too filled with thoughts of your eyes.

I tried to run, out of pure desperation.

But distance has only strengthened my heart's demise,

And time has only weakened my patience.

I'm quickly getting tired of my own lies.

I've loved you since you were a mere acquaintance,

And I've hoped for you to feel the same.

I've filled myself with unreasonable expectations.

I wonder do you see my shame?

When you come with all your trusting and touching,

I can never tell you how I feel for fear of blame.

I want to feel nothing,

That is,

Unless you feel something?