Love

The unnerving silence

You see people's lips move but you don’t hear a sound

You can feel all of the emotions building up inside

The hatred. The sadness. The frustrations

They all run through your veins

Tears start to blur your vision and you bite your lip trying to cause physical pain that will distract you from the emotional

You curl into a ball hoping that if you make yourself small enough you might disappear

Pressure builds up in your lungs as you hold back screams

Your throat tightens as you resist the urge to fall apart.

You try to breath but it was in that moment that you lose the fight

Silent sobs overtake you

You curse his name

You wonder how anyone that can bring you this much pain ever brought you happiness

You lay in a heap in your bed

Too broken and battered to do anything else

It is there that you sit, mourning the love that had blossomed over the last year

You looked back on every memory you two shared

All the late night conversations and the hours spent cuddling

You remember every laugh and every smile

The tickle fights and the movies

You look back at all these things and ask yourself if any of it was real

How could he say he loved you two weeks ago but today he feels nothing

Then you start to blame yourself and ask yourself how you ruined something that was so beautiful

It was there that you realized he was like everyone else

He left.