I know my head isn´t thinking right

For it is suicide to conform my creative mind

To wrap this rope around my neck

To let these words choke me to my death

And leaving not a trace of my soul left

To walk away to leave this place with not a trace

Of me but a silhouette that lurks the walls like a shadow

This endless battle of life coming to an end because my daily strife

To deal with what I know is right versus what is wrong

These thoughts clouding up and banging against

My brain wall sounding like a gong

Shaking me to my feet

Bringing the world to a feat

Only to bring their smiles to a defeat

Battered and tattered body filled with pain

What did you attain?

Your brain cacked in mess

Maybe this is the devil test

And god playing along and giving you stress

Implanting this seed of distress in your breast

Testing you if you will let him take care of rest

And lay you to rest

And let you sleep in peace

Because you confess

That this world is to hard to deal with

So it best to accept my arrest

And chain a rope around

My neck

Or shoot me in chest

So I can forever lock my thoughts

In a chest

So I don´t have to keep playing chess

With life and death

And so today I take by last breath

And adorn death around my neck like a wreath

And hold fate in a heath and let it sink in

Because tonight suicide wins ………...

god damn it I need you here so you can hold my broken pieces together because without you I am nothing but a broken vase.