bath time

strip

quickly

as fast as you can

the tears have already begun overflowing

get in the tub

the water flows around you

so warm and comforting 

or at least it should be

instead

i

am

kneeling down

sobbing 

and letting the tears 

mix

with the water

as i force air in through my lungs

and out from my throat

and a silent keen emerges from my contorted maw

gaping 

yet filled with

a noiseless

scream 

as i sob

and i sob 

the tears will not stop

i really

really

wanna go die

i feel

too much 

but eventually i stop

and get out 

with 

my eyes red

and heart empty once more

to be filled with tears again