a lost friend

I promise to always be a constant in your life.

You may never return the sentiment, but that's alright, i've come to terms that i'm not your priority.

At first it was unfathomable, we've been through so many things surely you wouldn't give up that easily on me?

But as the pain befell me, I began to think.

I have always had your back, but i've never asked for the favor to be returned.

So its starting to sink in that the one time I really need your friendship, my pain is too much an inconvenience for you.

That fact alone is more of a blow to me than the way you used me.

How do you throw away a friendship like the one I gave you? 

I hate always being the one that cares more.

No one should have to beg for a friend's comfort, so with that I have decided to take my inconvenience elsewhere.

Sorry for just needing someone to be there for me.

And sad part is, if you would call me right now in need of a friendly voice or help I wouldn't fucking hesitate to be there for you.