Hate...

I hate the fact that i miss you...when I know for a fact i haven't even crossed your mind.

I hate that we were friends, I protected you, stood up for you, and remained loyal.

I hate how you continuously led me to believe that we were something more.

I hate your laugh, your contagious smile, your beautiful god forsaken eyes. 

I hate you...and everything about you.

No matter how many times I tell myself that, I know it could never be true...I couldn't hate you, the memories of you and me together are still stuck in my head; the good and the bad. All the times you made me feel special and loved, and all the times you've made me cry and scream. I don't hate you...I've never experienced hate before. I only know love. No matter how hard I try to hate you, i couldn't possibly. I don't have the strength to hate you. You took away the rest of my strength when you left me...forever.