Am I Enough?

I have this feeling,

a feeling of not being good enough.

I look in the mirror and hate what I see.

I wonder where my confidence has gone.

Sometimes I fear I'm not exciting enough.

That you will get bored of me someday.

And tire of waking up to my face.

That you will want something new.

But, who could blame you.

I know I can be boring and frustrating.

My moods are unstable,

and my thoughts make no sense.

I know you love me and will never leave.

But there is a part of my mind that doesn't believe that.

I wonder if you really do love me or think I'm sexy.

I do my best to crush those thoughts,

but unfortunately they still linger.

I try to tell myself if he didn't want to be with me,

he wouldn't.

But that thought only leads to more..and more.