Words That I Never Said...

These are the words that I'll say....

"Please stay..."

"I need you. I need you to be with me. I'm drowning and you're keeping me alive."

"Love me. Choose me."

"I may not be your first choice but I'll be fine being your second. I can live with that. I can love us enough for the both of us."

These are the words that I never said.....

("Please stay...") "I don't need you. Just leave me alone!"

("I need you. I need you to be with me. I'm drowning and you're keeping me alive.") "If you want to go, then just go! I can survive with out you. I'm my own anchor! I don't need anyone but myself..."

("Love me. Choose me.") "There shouldn't be a choice. If you loved me enough then there wouldn't even be a choice. You already know what you want... and what you want isn't me."

("I may not be your first choice... but I'll be fine being your second.... I can live with that. I can love us enough for the both of us.") "I want to be the first choice! I can't settle for second.... What does that say about someone who would be fine being a second choice? You'll never love me enough. I'm not strong enough to love us enough for the both of us. I would never be able to live with myself."