Girls

I moved recently. There's this girl I like that I used to go to school with. It was only after I moved that I had the courage to start actually talking to her, to tell her that I like her. Every time my phone vibrates my heart starts to race and I hope it's a message from her. I was too scared to talk to her before, scared I might say something wrong, scared she wouldn't want to talk to me. Turns out she likes me too and now I can't figure out how to string two words together because what if it's too much for her, what if I'm rushing into things. I want to tell her how much I regret things in life, how much I regret how awkward I am. How I regret only hugging her once, how I regret that we didn't hang out before. How much I miss her even though I talk to her all the time. How much I miss the sound of her voice, the look in her eyes when she laughs, truly, honestly laughs, how her whole face lights up. How scared I am of relationships, how I ruin them before they even start because its easier to get over the heartbreak when you have a say in it. I want to be honest with her but sometimes I feel like I'm too much for even me to handle, let alone anyone else.