Change

I am lost in a churning sea of confusion. I don't understand when it all changed; when I changed. Was it gradual or have I just been lieing to myself to think I'm the same person I was three years ago. How do I know if the one constant in my life, the one and only thing I've ever wanted to be my entire existence, has really changed. Am I really that different or am I just in a slump? This feels so real, so right, like I'm finally being honest with myself and the mask is gone. So can it be? Am I finally finding the real me?