Scared the shit out

I am afraid

Fear dances in my stomach

makes my steps heavy

I am afraid

may be nicotine is low

or sleep is lost

or panic of sorts approaching

the fact that I am scared

scares me

I know I am stone digger

nothing stops me

or change my destination

but fear

I am scared of fears

They know me well

They know where to find me

and the right time

I am a little strong

playing with fear

there is no chance of winning

or losing comfortably