try to save them....

I don't care if it hurts, I don't care if I end up not being the same person I am now...if at some point I stop being me....I don't care if you start judging me or questioning me or even stop loving me right there and then but I can't not try. I can't not stand there and watch everything...and I mean everything unfold right in front of my eyes....how do you expect me to just let go and not reach out to her, to him. How could people expect us, me, you to not give a damn, what just because I wasn't the one being pushed... wasn't the one being beaten brutally, just because I wasn't the one being ripped into pieces pulled apart ,scratched and clawed...just because I wasn't her and he wasn't me doesn't mean I have to sit still and see....how could you see her face without seeing a million cracks in between how could you look at her and shhh away her silent screams how could you tell yourself it's okay...its okay...its okay. It wasn't you and it wasn't me and that's all the difference there has to be but it was us in every part of her, see when humanity gets snatched away from you it's not just that person that has so much to lose...when someone looks at you in a way that makes you take a step back its not just you their looking at...when someone speaks out cruel, your not the only one in that space, I can't not just sit here because I carry those scars she had with me everywhere. I can't not think about it because every time I close my eyes I'm in that same place she was just in a different version of that story, just in a different chapter in life, just in a different time of day but exactly in the same world that's forever said to stay and in which we chose to live every single day Xx

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