Ex WHYfe

After the final thread was torn from my heart connecting to her, I wouldnt allow myself to cry any longer. I refused to let another tear fall because of the loneliness and broken promises. Drawing myself a bath staring at the full face of makeup applied for just a short car ride. Heart broken my daughter isn't by my side and wondering how I'm going to survive. this night with out her beautiful soul . Making the Luke warm water turn into skin searing heat and slowly sitting in listening to the water pour from the spout. As the tub fills, and the silence to loud. Deafening silence normally within my aching heart begging for the love she once showed. As my womanly body naturally cleanses, I pull the blood clots slowly from the water thinking, praying only to find someone who would love the vivid reds my body makes, appreciating me and my ability. Only knowing I am physically able to conceive and birth another child only to mentally be blocked from being a mother to more. She's taken my being for granted not understanding her heart thrashing words piercing my ear drums as they casually roll off her bitter tongue. Mindless flowers and grocery store chocolates sit on the counter only as a reminder of her convenience to "love". What has she turned into. She's no woman, she's no man, she no human. She mute, cold blooded selfish object who never thought into anyone else's mind. All my mind will let me wonder is why. Why would I let this happen. What am I gonna do for my daughter? To support her and show her what true love is when her mother can't even get it. Cheers and tears to my ex wife.