fragile

you pretend that it never happened

but i know you’ll never stop remembering.

that you are one of the many reasons

that my heart keeps trembling.

because of all your faults,

that you perceived as mine.

i was only an innocent child

but not in your eyes.

because of all the words you’ve said

repeated on a daily basis.

the angry marked walls that had never faded

and my arms that were red from your grasp.

the floor hurt more when i fell because of you.

unable to breathe because at school it happened too.

you could’ve at least pretended to care

or let me know that you did.

sadly, you were too oblivious to notice

how badly i was suffering.

because i was so tired of running

and done with always being locked in.

i could never understand why it was just me

or how i was never good enough.

crying out to god asking what i did wrong

and my only answer was the oxygen in my lungs.

i knew you saw how much i could wreck

in such little time.

how much louder i had screamed,

the way my ribs started to poke out,

and still you never listened to me.

you only heard my tone of voice

but not my heartfelt words.

to this day i could never forget

because i still wince at the sound.

how much i hate when you’re

angry and around.

but if only you could’ve been more.

more fragile with my bones,

forgiving on my mistakes,

and gentle on my soul.

maybe i wouldn’t be so afraid.

not of you,

but that one day i’ll act that way too.