fragile
you pretend that it never happened
but i know you’ll never stop remembering.
that you are one of the many reasons
that my heart keeps trembling.
because of all your faults,
that you perceived as mine.
i was only an innocent child
but not in your eyes.
because of all the words you’ve said
repeated on a daily basis.
the angry marked walls that had never faded
and my arms that were red from your grasp.
the floor hurt more when i fell because of you.
unable to breathe because at school it happened too.
you could’ve at least pretended to care
or let me know that you did.
sadly, you were too oblivious to notice
how badly i was suffering.
because i was so tired of running
and done with always being locked in.
i could never understand why it was just me
or how i was never good enough.
crying out to god asking what i did wrong
and my only answer was the oxygen in my lungs.
i knew you saw how much i could wreck
in such little time.
how much louder i had screamed,
the way my ribs started to poke out,
and still you never listened to me.
you only heard my tone of voice
but not my heartfelt words.
to this day i could never forget
because i still wince at the sound.
how much i hate when you’re
angry and around.
but if only you could’ve been more.
more fragile with my bones,
forgiving on my mistakes,
and gentle on my soul.
maybe i wouldn’t be so afraid.
not of you,
but that one day i’ll act that way too.
emotionless
alone in the night she cried out,
“you’re better off without me”
as she pushed the world away.
the sky rolled over, the moon stopped shining, and her lungs became still. she was only focused on five lonely words.
“i’ll never be good enough”
as she took her final breath the stars fell back into place. she couldn’t help but have the thought of the words they’ve left behind.
“nobody will ever love you”
and so, her heart became laced with
“goodbye”
because she was too emotionless to not let go.