Heavy Machinery

"heavy machinery," i say

i don't know why i say it

but the phrase blurts from my lips

before it can run through my mind

or give me a heads up

for all the odd stares undoubtedly coming my way

words come and go

before i get the chance

to even think about thinking about them

and maybe that's why all i can say

is "heavy machinery"

because any intelligible phrases are lost

as i begin the long process

of thinking

about thinking

about thinking them

before i speak

but when i don't think

before thinking

about thinking

about thinking

about thinking

about saying something

i shout every little thing that comes to my mouth

and i'm told

"why don't you think

before you speak?"

because i get lost

and the only thing i recognize

is a flashing sign

that says "heavy machinery"