Jamie Ashworth; Cannot Be Found

Lost.

No coordinates.

Nothing.

She vanished into a Donnie Darko reality with wild

pikas and downtown streets and injured people.

But I do know the last things she did.

She drove home from the mountains,

with plants in her veins and tears in her

eyes. She tried listening to songs but it

didn't help. Walking was harder, she had

become the injured people. Beaten by time

once again. You will baby sit the dog, they

said. You will baby sit the dog and stay here,

just like the dog, and you will not drive us out

of our minds again, you will not drive, period.

She disapered slowly, going away piece by piece,

frame by frame.

But I do know the last things she saw.

She watched as the light turned from red to

green, she watched people without homes wait

for breakfast, she watched a fan turn around and

around in a room. She saw a game on tv that many

were watching, she saw a chest with the treasure of a

heart, she saw herself leave the room and never come

back.

She left herself at home, wherever that was, running

away from safety as fast as she possibly could.

Melted like ice in a cup of water. Memories leaned back

in their seats and sighed, fire works went off in the brain,

music, so much music to put faces into, do I want you to

be happy? good. looks like it should be cold outside. do you

believe in time travel? Donnie, wake up Donnie. Huh. That

was savage. Best conversation I've ever had with her, my mom.

She chose to disconnect from herself entirely. Log off of her existence

and start a new account. Hmm, what to call this one. Jaguar roaming

wild, stay on the right side of the road? No. The light is green, why are

you coming to a stop? Perhaps. And it's yes in here, not yeah, come on.

Her soul has been forgotten in the corner, nobody came to save it from

burning out. Nobody saw it. Nobody could.

Push the envelope, I dare you.

One more time and you'll lose yourself.

The delete button pulled her in close, holding her being just tight enough,

just strong enough, and she vanished.

Lost.

No coordinates.

Nothing.

Jamie Ashworth cannot be found.