The Pain He Caused (poem)

It didn’t have to be a fire.

It didn’t have to end in ashes but that was your desire.

It could have ended happily,

You even made that promise to me.

I told you it was all over.

You didn’t take it very well, but thank God you were sober.

You said I crushed your soul and made you cry,

You said that you just wanted to die.

You made me feel guilty for being happy.

You confused my emotions and everything was over-lapping.

Happy was guilty and angry was dramatic and doing what was best for me was wrong.

But you even knew what you were doing all along.

You told me you would take your life.

You said you even grabbed the knife.

I told you I was sorry, I pleaded for you not to do it.

But you just showed me the ringer and continued to put me through it.

You told me you would grab a gun.

You said if you saw a car coming, you wouldn’t run.

You said you knew how to tie a noose.

You said you wouldn’t tie it loose.

You were a never ending nightmare.

You made me vulnerable as if my body were bare.

When I shake in the night it’s because of you.

You tore me down, that’s all you do.

When you touched me I got chills.

When you touched me you got thrills.

You said you would take the pills.

You said it would be the one that kills.

You gave me bags under my eyes from sleepless nights,

And endless anxiety from all of our fights.

Though I don’t wish death on anyone,

Your time with me is officially done.