This is My Why:

Hate.

Failure.

Let down.

Unjustice.

Unfairness.

Ruthlessness.

Greed.

Knock down.

Lonliness.

Isolation.

Barriers.

Sadness.

Depression.

Anxiety.

Shame.

Discomfort.

Loss.

Confusion.

Fatigue.

Want.

Need.

Desire.

I need a path to redemption.

But is redemption even what I want?

Maybe time travel.

Or I'd even take hindsight.

I can't make my past disappear. It affects my being, my soul, my every thought and desicion.

It haunts me into a restless submission.

One I am constantly fighting.

And I take that fight very seriously.