i trusted you and to me , that’s much stronger than love
“ just sit still and
breathe when i tell
you to , you don’t
want to get this
chlorine stuck in
your lungs ”
&
so i listened as you
drug me down to the
bottom of the swimming
pool in the backyard
you shared with seven other
guys who went to
the same college you did
&
you held my hand
so hard that i thought
you were gonna snap my
wrist
&
my eyes burned so much
when i finally opened
them to see you
smiling across at me
as everyone else
jumped in
&
and they held onto
my ankles and wrists ,
pulling them out of
their sockets and snapping
them like twigs
&
my eyes burned so
much as i looked across
at you , but this time
we weren’t in your
pool , we were in the
guest bedroom of the
house that you shared
with seven other guys who
went to the same college
that you did
&
you were holding the
red solo cup that you
had given to me
earlier , watching
as three of your bestfriends
held me down , dragging me
to the darkest parts of the
pool that seeped into the
mattress i was drowning
on
&
you held my hand
so hard that i thought
my wrist was gonna
snap
&
it did when you didn’t
stop them from taking
what was so sacred
between you and i
BUT
that’s the thing about
swimming in the dark ,
not knowing what lies
beyond
YOU CAN’T
blame anyone but
yourself because
YOU JUMPED INTO THE POOL