Overdoses
These feelings I amma
let em roll down my tongue like candy
cause it’s eaiser to be happy
when the pills make You feel like cotton
trying every flavor
cause what’s the excuse
I relapse
detox
into another mess
it’s just the stress
i dont see the the point in trying to save my wellness
my eyes well up in tears
holding hands with my fears
I keep rereading our Messages
Try to scrap off your sadness
cause why didnt I see the sliver of your pain
I try to roll out my tongue
bite my anger
i Taste the salt from
my tears
poured in the cup
drunk them down
so I could heal
my throat from all the screaming I have done
I‘ve been sending texts at 4 am
cause I just need your skin
I need your blue eyes
and brown hair
and your lies saying your fine
i Need you to pour your broken parts in me
I know I can save you
i like a little kid jump up
down
throwing a fit
cause I am begging you to give a shit
i can’t love a dead thing back to life
I have turned to poetry
thought it would be cathartic
but it has me feeling lethargic
I often stay up late reading over everything
cause I have tried to find out how many lies were told
were you ever happy
i am at crossword
I look at the mirror
my head over the stink
turning the faucet
hoping it would drown out the thoughts in my head
my heart has indentation of you
your name carved on it
cause I don’t think our love could die
i use to belive we were like infinity
I belive the love was right the timing wasn’t
Maybe we were always meant to be a period
I fold the pages of this book
cause I tend to come back and look at it again
cause I am obessed with closure