I won’t hurt myself for you

I wish the words would flow like they used to

I wish I could do things. And not judge myself

I wish my accidents could be less painful and more humorous

Like it used to be

When you're young you can do anything and not care

At least that's what people think

People hurt people because they have been hurt before in their lives

Bullies have been bullied before

But still

In away, I wish it were not that way

Because there is always a reason

For this pain

And I really want it to go

Far

Leave me alone

Fly through the forest and into the sewer like it has done to me many times before

Burn in flaming heat and disintegrate like my joy

I want it to go

I want the pain to leave me alone

But it won't

It will always be there tugging at my waist

Saying terrible things that make me want to fall and cry until I can't anymore

Scream at how terrible I am until I curl up into a ball on the ground and don't get up

The pain will always be there

It always, always, always, always, always, always, always will be there

It will

It just will

But I will stand up to it

And never break my stance