A Letter to Myself

Dear Future Me,

Fuck you. I'm not all that bad. If you stop doing embarassing things than you'll have nothing to be embarassed by, jeez. This is advice that can carry throughout our entire life. I swear to hell, if you say one moe stupid thing, I will punch you. Or straight up yeet you through a wall. Also, get yourself some anxiety/depression meds if you don't already. Despite what you think, you're pretty messed up. Just because you aren't feeling like and empty puppet being dragged through life anymore doesn't mean that you're no longer depressed.

When a person tells you that you're behaving aggressively, stop swearing them out. I know you have a terrible temper but come on, man. You're at least a day older than you were the day you wrote this.

Another thing, what the fuck is wrong with us. Instead of getting a song stuck in our head like a normal human being, we have the frickin getting burned to death sound effect from yandere simulator. I'd say the worst thing is that it doesn't even bother present me (past me?) anymore. It's just: "Oh look, What's New Pussy Cat, is playing again" rather than "Huh, What's New Pussy Cat is a lot longer than I first thought". And the second response would be the "normal" response. But is it anymore, because a lot of people in my generation is only half-joking when they say I wanna die. Cuz you know death would suck but it's a lot easier than this bullshit.

Screw being alive. I didn't want to live past 5th grade, but here I am. Writing this instead of doing review for a math test tommorow. Which I will definitely fail, not because I don't try but because mental illness loves to slap me in the face when I need to focus on not mental illness.

To all the Karens out there, fuck you. I'm just tryna have a good time, but the concept of you as a whole is enough to make me sad. And a thing about being sad, is that when we get sad we get sad for months at a time, cuz as I said earlier me. You're still fucking depressed, get some god damn meds.

Peace out,

Your younger self