A necessary pain

A necessary pain to endure is the pain of abandonment. But its a pain that I feel motivates me to try where I never have before. It is the best motivation for me. I don't like needless suffering, I am sure many don't, as a rule we avoid it. But abandonment is something that always made me try to become better. It isn't the only one but it is the most common feeling. From at school to the dead memories of 9 years wasted in that home. The fear of abandonment and the process of avoiding it becomes vital in surviving. its over in a sense.