((Breathe me))
Won’t you put your lips against mine
I am a beautiful dying thing
perform your cpr
i can’t promise I will wake
breathe me
I lay next you
I often struggle to breathe
my lungs are heavy
I cant seem to find the words
if I keep saying I am fine
maybe you’ll hear the
the voice inside my head save me
hold me close
I can’t carry my body
no longer
I remove my sketelon
unveil all the parts aren’t so pretty
I’ll vomit out my insides
it be easier for you to bury me
You should unbreathe me
I should have warned you
I am carbon dioxide
selfish of me
i know your in need of oxygen
but I am the one
who is dying silently
I rip away my Ribs
tearing through my chest to get through My heart
I don’t feel like living
it won’t stop fighting
i have turned my bed into a coffin
Depression my pretty symphony
My words a cacaphony
I am loud
but my screams are silent
don’t you see my smile
but my eyes
Don’t you see the help
It’s in the eyes
Sometimes people recognize the hurt in you
Before you even do
they put a life jacket around you
pushing the thought of living down your throat
and it wraps around your chest like a sentence
they say you got to live
cause theirs more to your story
I tell em I don’t wanna keep writing it
let someone else be the author
I tell em anyone could write a euglogy
they say wake up
girl your poetry
oh don’t they realize
poetry is an cathartic confusion
I tell em fine I will write it
but I won’t finish it
they tell me keep painting until you see the person you wanna be
I‘ll Tell em find someone else to be the illustrator
they say who will color in the darkness in rainbows
i’ll Tell em get a painter
they say wake up
your an the emobidient of hope
dont they relaize
i use my bones as a paint brush
dipping into my marrow
oh I sing about pain
I am a baby bird
I still recoil under my wings
my pen
Has became my own addiction
I rip into unhealed wounds
i want to be stable
I often post
then I get traumatic
and feel the stress
and I become the disorder
I am still trying to heal
my body
They say in every line in poetry it is a story
That’s the thing I don’t know where my pain begin and ended
For my past
Is a never ending knife
Of letting go
I stab myself
over and over again
hoping I could for once
be the dragon slayer
i could stop the fire from consuming me
I am a burning house
I am the house
pour your tears
on my soul
I don’t want your pity
sit with me in the silence
dance with me
and why don’t you turn up the record player
I just want to hear someone else
sing the words I can’t say out loud
i’ve been pounding on walls
in my brain
asking if it would free the memory
I am trying to solve my own case
there are parts of me that don’t make sense
i Started taking self love in pills
feeling every whole
to stop the bleeding
I have often
visted my cemetery
And wonder who dare kill the girl who had so much to offer
i hold my hands with my younger self
and forgive her for being a child
but how dare she grow up
without speaking out
I often blame myself
and wonder if she just pointed out the bad guy
maybe she would save her
but how was she to know
when all she knew
were snitches get stiches and end up in ditches
they’ll bury your truth
But you will roar louder than a lion
i be lying if I didn’t admit I like Ursula
stole a voice
my own voice
she will speak her truth even if it burns her village in flames and she will become her own village
I often look at my hands
oh how did I get this way
I dont look in the mirror
scared I see the little girl Me
i Am not yet ready to face her
oh she doesn’t know
the weight of her truth
I stopped weighing myself
I have realized I weigh more than average
because I didn’t have the average life
my baggage vacays in my heart
I stiched up my smile
you’ll never see me drown
I threw all my favorite fairytales away
because Bad guys arent just cartoons
oh i spent my time
pilfering through them
hoping to find out why
him and him and him
didn’t fit the mold
because princes are the bad guys
the ones princess need saving from
Breathe me
breathe in
breathe
little girl
oh you can’t blame yourself
You lost yourself in your anger
oh you can’t blame yourself
I will do right by you
I will hold you in my arms
sit you in my lap
and tilt your head to my bosom
and quiet your demons
I will tell you will be okay cause we will make it you and I
we will make it to another birthday
i use to be scared Of my voice
but the little girl in me needs me to speak for us
you have to make amends with the past to heal
for Even red riding hood ... mistaken the big bad wolf for grandma ..
you will learn love too many boys who cry wolf are the wolf themselves
when the memories get too hard to swallow
((breathe ))
(( Breathe ))
(( Breathe ))
The truth will hurt but you will be free ..the little girl in me ..needs her rest ..the road she has traveled has made her tired and weary
Forgive yourself <3 love
signed the past
sent the present