Dearest love,

There was never anyone else for me but you in this world. You were a light to me in the darkest times of my life, and the star that guided me every single day. I died loving you so much more than I ever thought was possible. Never doubt that. Every fight, every night spent alone, every bad memory is insignificant to me. Our love is one in a million. Don't you ever, ever doubt that. (P.S. Take care of the cats for me. Be strong and play with them everyday.)

Sweet sister,

You will never know how proud I am of you. I could not be half as strong or as brave as you are, and I am nine years your senior. You gave me hope for a better future. You showed me that little girls are the toughest forces of nature. You kick butt! You wrote an essay about how I am your role model. That means a lot to me, but I think that it's really you who set an example for me. You made me better, happier, and more courageous than I thought I could be. You got through losing mom. You've got this. Just know that I am never really gone. I'm with mom, watching you and cheering you on every step of the way.

My grandmother,

I know that I was not always the best granndaughter to you, and I want you to know that I'm sorry. In reality, you meant everything to me. I respect the hell out of you, nana. You set a good example for us all. When he left, you raised three kids on your own and never forgot to be caring and kind. When mom left me for a time, you became my own mother. You were one of my best friends. You are beating cancer. You went through the loss of your parents, your sister, and a child. I don't know how you even manage to get out of bed everyday. You are made of titanium, and that has always been the driving force behind my fight for others. You defended me, and in doing so, you inspired me to defend others. I love you to the moon and back. Much love, your sunshine.

My best friend,

You taught me how to love. When I was a broken little bird, you came along and took me under your wing. It's funny because I've always been the big one, ready to punch anyone to defend your honor. Who knew that you are the one who actually fought for me and healed me first? Needless to say, I wouldn't be alive if not for your kindness and your giant heart. Your laugh is so infectious, and you persist when no one else can. You are hardworking and fierce -- of course, you knew that already. You're a Leo, after all! When you make chocolate chip pancakes, know that I'm there in spirit and I really want to eat them. When you eventually pass, know that I will be waiting somewhere on the beach to pick you up again like that photo we took on vacation. I love you, sweet pea. Go out there and reach for the stars!