Fell Into the Shallow Pond

You dipped into the shallow pond,

All that was left was a moving shadow,

Dark and sinister, Swimming

Like a fish, but forever haunting me.

You’ve seen the ocean

Water in my eyes,

Sizzling onto and off my cheeks,

And you flagellated over That.

I looked over the pond,

I saw myself looking back

Wearing the white dress you wanted me to wear.

It turned to ashes,

I stood there naked,

My humanity insulted by your emails.

In the pond water, you kissed another girl,

Perhaps did more,

But you’ve delved into the darkest waters

I couldn’t see, I didn’t want to see.

But you told me,

To bait me.

And I jumped into the water.

I swam through the abyss,

To find you.

I drowned myself looking.

I would wake up,

Please stop resuscitating me,

My mom holds my hand. But,

Somehow I always end up by the shallow pond,

Reflecting, watching

And accidentally drowning myself again.