my mistake

I was struggling with my emotions. Struggling with the strong feelings I had for you. But I worked so hard to hide them away for so long that it ate me up, consumed me in an extremely unhealthy manner. You had no idea.

If only I hadn't done that. If only I hadn't made the rash decision to tell you everything. Then maybe we would be okay. Maybe you would still talk to me.

If only I hadn't done that. Maybe you wouldn't have cancelled on me today. Maybe you wouldn't have left me in the dark. Maybe you wouldn't have run away scared. Scared of the love that I have for you.

If only I hadn't done that. Hadn't told you that I cared. Hadn't told you that I noticed you seemed so uncomfortable.

If only I hadn't.