The Spiral

This life has turned into a roller coaster

Spiraling down into the depths of Hell

I can't even look up to Him for help

I'm so ashamed, where is my life headed y'all?

Nowhere, just stuck in a frame dangling from an empty wall

That I've built in defense from the outside world

Too afraid to let my true self out, there's an annex in my heart

Where my feelings keep hiding and writing in their diaries

Unsent letters addressed to my mouth, but they never get delivered

Because of the interference from my mind, sending signals that warn me

Not to express what I really feel, they'll just scorn me

So lost within myself, I'm being mislead by the thoughts in my head

It feels like only yesterday that my heart gave out

And my dreams were shattered , my soul left without 

The guidance of love, peace, and joy

But instead filled with anger and hatred, all hope destroyed

My logical side knows that it's really been nine years

Since my spirit dug a shallow ditch and filled it with desolate tears